Brokenness ~ Conclusions

Some musings, offered up to contemplate upon. No definite answers other than like every thing else, it is a Journey of discovery, of healing and of "taking out the trash". In other words, I still am dealing with a boat-load of crap myself and expect to be 'til Papa consumes the transformation by transporting me to the final destination . . . ~ Selah ~

"None of us leave this stage scar-free. Not even Yeshua.
But the Good News is that the show is not over and you are not alone.
The Author and Finisher of your Faith has written Himself into your story . . . and you into His."
~ MLC ~

Shadow and Shadows . . .
 Most of the crap we deal with is due to a listening problem. We fail to listen to our Shadow (Jungian Psychology nudge here) and listen to the wrong shadows; the shadows of hurt, angst, accusations. The shadows of lies, expectations, illusions and false assumptions. The Religious Matrix does little to help, if not most the time re-enforcing the lies and increasing the burdens through "accountability", obligation and performance. All of which GSF (Guilt Shame Fear) is the main tool. We get so caught-up in the vortex of "coulds-shoulds-oughts" that we miss the still, quiet voice who whispers to us of Unconditional Love and Acceptance.

Needed on this Journey are close, intimate journey-mates who know you well enough and love you enough that they can speak into your life. We all get out of sync and off-centered now and then. It is a blessing to have even one such friend who can step into your whirl-wind/hurricane to bring focus, "centered-ness" to you without "Collapsing the Quantum Wave Function" (I.E.: Judging you). Someone who is willing to come out into the depths of the water where you are even though they are scared of the deep water just as much as you are.

Along with this, is a growing awareness of Papa's Love, with which Truth and Light travel together in.
This simultaneously involves clearing the foundation of the clutter that the Religious Matrix has crapped upon and by "taking out the trash" we ourselves have collected through the years. Talking to Papa/Yeshua/Ruah Kodesh. Listening to our Shadow, learning it's language. Allowing access for Papa to walk with us through the "Interior Mansion" (Teresa de Avila nudge here) of our soul, our psyche.

Learning to look your fears, your failings, regrets, embarrassments and shames directly in the eyes and laugh.
Laugh at them and laugh at yourself. The greatest lie is that you are the only one who goes through this.
I highly recommend Dr. Brené Brown's book "I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn't)

Truth in Strange Places
Don't be afraid to explore. One of the greatest guilt-trips and fears that the Religious Matrix (and just about any other organized institution/belief system) places upon us is that of questing . . . of questioning, of travelling and exploring the status-quo, the realms of psyche and spirit (the short-coming of the last part of that statement is that it makes it sound dualistic, which I don't believe in dualism. Body, Psyche and Spirit are not separate or divided. In the reading of scripture, you will see that the Original Intent and Final Outcome are the same; Life Incarnate).

Listen to other people's stories, even though they may be travelling a different path. Even Paul the Apostle was familiar with the sayings of "poets" of different cultures. ("For ‘In him we live and move and have our being', as even some of your poets have said, ‘For we too are his offspring.’" Paul’s Speech at the Areopagus). Just always include Papa in your Journeys. Learn to hear His voice, trust His guidance and listen to what He may be saying to you through others.


Learn to question yourself . . . the "truths" you have believed and have been taught, both at home, in the family and in the larger arenas of life. Not out of defiance or rebelliousness. God does not mind questions. God is secure in who God is. You just might find that your daring to ask will reveal a "truth" you thought was once His really wasn't. Same goes for the "truths" your family of origin and the institutions told you to believe. You will be likely to discover His truth where you would least expect it. Ask the woman at the well or those who traveled on the road to Emmaus. Ask Cornelius who tried to follow the truth as best he knew it and was surprized to find it in clearer form come knocking upon his door!


Don't be surprized that the RM and it's adherents will warn of dangers and try scaring you away from pursuing that. Realize that most of them are sincere. And don't be naive . . . we all can be deceived and can walk empty paths. But that does not limit Papa from meeting us on any path. I am always amazed how Papa steers me back. I'm also amazed the places I encounter His voice and "nudgings" in. Learn to become aware of the nudges, winks and kisses of The Divine. The Divine truly conspires to bring you into Love, Light and Wholeness.
But it is a Journey that will take you the rest of your life . . . and into the next.


We all have trash that needs taking out. Rooms of the Interior Mansion that need a good thorough cleaning and arranging. Take it all in stride and realize that you are a human-in-training. As is everyone else.
Your scars just may turn out to be the healing someone else needs.
Breathe baby breathe.
Shalom on The Journey.